Loss
Giving it to G-d
“Is everything okay?” I timidly ask in the examination room. I’m anxiously waiting as the doctor performs the very first…
All The Things I Can & Cannot Remember
This Story Contains: Pregnancy Loss, Pregnancy Termination, Grief This essay was written and workshopped in The Layers Writing & Publishing…
Forever On A Blurry Road: Memories of A Past Relationship
He drove a red Jeep Cherokee Laredo. It’s a noticeable car, and for years, I noticed them everywhere. I would…
Remembering My Baby
“My baby died.” I bite my lip. This isn’t the place, I remind myself. This is a stranger. This is…
Giving Myself Permission to Grieve My Mother
I clearly remember the morning in school when I announced, “my mommy passed away and she’s in shamayim.” The room…
Experiencing Depression After Pregnancy Loss
For much of my life, I didn’t understand what it meant to be depressed. I thought it meant feeling down,…
Choosing Love
As much as I loved love and dished it out generously to others, I fed myself fear. This ingestion was…
Sixteen Years.
This is the one I was dreading the most. Every year, as I’ve counted and commemorated each yahrzeit, I realized…
Stopping to Surrender
It’s so hard for me to be far away from him, not to be able to hold him through this,…
Tova’s Story: Finding My Inner Strength
(1/6): Seeds For The Future “It all started when I was living in New Jersey. I was a teacher and…
My Black Father’s Legacy
I’ll never forget when I saw my father’s silhouette frozen in the rain that dark night. “Sir. What are you…
Remembering Olly & Mimmi
I had just walked through Auschwitz- Birkenau and seen things that I could never have imagined in my worst nightmares.…