Motherhood
Remembering My Baby
“My baby died.” I bite my lip. This isn’t the place, I remind myself. This is a stranger. This is…
Memory: The Present, the Elusive, the Good, and the Bad
Facebook reminds me of a photo from 7 years ago, the moment I became a grandmother. My mother reminds me…
Behind Closed Doors
My story started out pretty ordinary. I married the boy I had a crush on in summer camp and we…
Listening To My Own Voice
She told me to get in the bath. “You’re not in labor,” she said. Seven years ago, on August 12,…
Experiencing Depression After Pregnancy Loss
For much of my life, I didn’t understand what it meant to be depressed. I thought it meant feeling down,…
Choosing Love
As much as I loved love and dished it out generously to others, I fed myself fear. This ingestion was…
Danielle’s Story: Embracing Surrender: My Experience With OHSS
1/6 “Unexplained Infertility” “It was the day before Thanksgiving. I remember because I took the day as a good omen.…
Maybe A Little Brighter, Tomorrow
After my second son was born, I struggled with mild postpartum depression (PPD). It was bad enough to be struggling…
My Conversion Journey
I’m standing in front of the Jewish ritual bath, the mikvah, wearing only a white cotton robe and clear plastic…
Surviving & Thriving After Emergency Hysterectomy
It has been four years since I was wheeled into the operating room not knowing whether I was to come…
How Far I’ve Come
Twenty years ago today, I was in Israel in seminary for about twelve days when right before Rosh Hashana, my…
The Darkness Behind My Smile
I am laying against the wall with my fingers in my ears. My eyes are closed shut. I feel the…